3. The Mini Camera.

So once upon a time there was this stupid girl who was mildly interested in photography. (By mildly, I mean very interested, just with no professional training, nor classes under her belt, and little experience, excusing the horrible outburst of "PHOTOGRAPHY," lovers and even more horrible "self-portraits," that have been given to us by the age of the mobile phone with a camera attatched to it.)

Anyhoo, this girl spent a lot of time hanging out with one of her best friends, and once mentioned to him that she wished she could just get a miniature camera implanted into her eye, and if she so willed it, it would snap a photo when she blinked. It would turn out exactly how she saw it, with no flash, no special lenses, and far more pixelage than any mobile phone's camera could hope to achieve.

Four-to-five years later, he still remembered and brought it up as a sort of inside joke, or just randomly into conversation. She doesn't remember exactly why it was brought up, or what he said. But he remembered, and that was awesome.

He also gave her his camera. It's a freaking Canon. And the best part is, it's not digital. And the first time they broke up, he let her keep it.

2. When You Get Angry

You don't tend to take it out on anyone else. (purposefully, at least. When you run away from me / won't talk to me, I get upset, but I know you're not actively trying to make me upset.) This was one of the qualities I definitely didn't notice very early on- you hide your anger fairly well. And when it bubbles over the top, all you want is to be alone. Sometimes, I really hate this. But over-all, I'd say I love you for it. I hate people who get angry and scream and yell- there's no point, it's wasted energy. While I do wish you'd talk to me more, and not be so destructive towards your self... I can't help but love you for the way you are so kind and gentle with everyone.

1. Your Ginger Hair.

Hair seems like a really bad reason to love someone. It can easily be changed, and often does so by itself. You tell me a lot that you won't be a redhead forever, seeing as your dad used to be one too. And yeah, when it changes, or falls out, I'll miss it, but I'll love you anyways. The reason why I decided to put this as the first thing was because it was the first thing that stuck out. I saw your hair, and was instantly attracted to you. It set you apart from everyone else- for some reason, even your twin's hair didn't seem as vibrant, or coaxing.  Your hair obviously knew how to commit subterfuge against me, that's all it must have been. Like an insect drawn to a flower, even though the flower has nothing to offer it.

I suppose that's a bad comparison, though, because you've given me so much.

Getting Up Off My Ass

Well, here's the thing, I'm not really "on my ass," a whole lot. I really do do a lot of things... I just rarely finish anything. Or continue to do things. Everything I do I never finish, and eventually they just die off. For instance, this is like my millionth attempt at a blog, most of the time I'm lucky if I make it past one post. I didn't even manage to finish the facebook "30 days of pictures," challenge thing. I think I did two days. (And I'm trying really hard just to finish this ONE post because at the moment it's 10:31 PM and I'm terribly annoyed with my siblings. Moving back in with your family is difficult. It's really hard to get anything done when there's 5 people younger than you running around and making messes and all you're trying to do is clean up after them. Did I mention it's Christmas Break? -_-)

Anyhoo. I've decided I really need finish some things I've always wanted to do, in addition to the other things I've attempted to do. So. I'm going to try some of my own challenges, tweak some of the other challenges going around the internet, and hopefully accept and finish any other challenges that come my way. I'm half a year away from 20, and I feel like I need to finish something.

So, aside from this post listing my challenges,  I'm going to do the "1000 Reasons Why I Love You," challenge I've seen on Tumblr, only I hope to make it far more personalized. And finally, because I like to do things with my hands... I'm also going to challenge myself to make 100 different flowers out of 100 different things. Mainly because I already got inspired to try one thing I haven't done (it's a secret.) And also, I want to make a duct-tape flower.

So, I'm going to have very strict rules with the 30 Days picture thing on facebook,  and the 1000 Reasons Why I Love You, challenges. Starting tomorrow, not a single day will go by where I skip ANY of these challenges. Hopefully I'll also get my writing juices flowing again so I can finish the one book I've always wanted to try writing. And maybe after I finish the 30 Days facebook thing, I'll do the 365 Self Portrait challenge on Flickr. Or something. Or if you have anything else to suggest, let me know, maybe.

So here ends the exclamations of hopeful, self-motivation, that probably seems totally dull to everyone else.

Thanks for listening.